I figure I would take this time to introduce you to me; since I have a busy day ahead of me, it will be pretty short.
Tough stuff first: I wish I could say I discovered my sexuality through some romantic or sensual experiences, but I didn’t. There was some abuse involved, which lead to a many years of guilt and shame. Thankfully, my mother found out about it early on, so it wasn’t a nightmarish, long-term situation, and I did have a somewhat normal childhood afterwards. But that did leave some emotional scars that persist to this day. I’m working on it, but at this point, I think I’m past it for the most part, so you won’t be hearing about it in any greater detail.
Whew! That’s out of the way.
Back to the present: I’m a virile, young American male. I’m very attractive, consider myself to have a congenial personality and in general, do all the things most guys my age do. I’m 28 now, but honestly, I am not that afraid of turning 30 – it surprises me how many people get hung up on that number, but realistically speaking, I think 35 or 40 are the big birthdays. There is no getting away from adulthood once you hit those numbers!
I am a great kisser, and I tend to enjoy staying in bed all day if I can. If I could manage it, I would go through the day not wearing any clothes, at all. I love the human body, and mines especially is finally showing results from years of athletics and working out. I think there is a voyeuristic aspect of my personality, because I like being looked at, touched and turning people on. I hate to sound snobbish, but I definitely have an aesthetic appreciation for a well-developed and toned body, whether male or female. So while some people look for romance and are all prepared to ignore or downplay physical appearance, I definitely find it a very important aspect of my sexuality.
That being said, I love porn! They are some of my role models – I like to credit porn with helping me actually get over any issues I had as a kid, because I grew up Christian, and that certainly didn’t help me with any of my problems! While some people went to church to find forgiveness, I was always impatient to get home, rub one out and then go off to the gym. For years I tried to be a strict churchgoer (this has more to do with watching “The Exorcist” as a kid – that movie traumatized me for years!), but as I get more relaxed with myself, I realize that I’m just too lusty and turned on too easily to bury the emotions under some pious mask. I’m not throwing out all of my morals, but I decide to take control over my own health and decisions, and I refuse to abdicate responsibility to an imaginary being. But you are more than free to believe in whatever you choose. I’m not criticizing anyone’s beliefs. In truth, I don’t really care, as long as you don’t try to inflict it on me. Unless you’re hot; in which case I may put up with your moralizing while eye raping you. I like that term, btw, even if I don’t approve of rape. “Eye fucking” just sounds dirty.
That’s another point – I love the gym. I respect all the people that commit themselves to creating the body of their dreams and the eye candy alone makes it worthwhile to get there early and work hard. It’s an investment – you put time into it and discipline yourself with correct form and the right nutrition, and you can quickly make progress that is measurable and visible. You can usually find me at Results near Dupont Circle either ogling or being ogled (I prefer both).
I intend this blog to be a journal of my sexual experiences as well as the more worthwhile thoughts that go through my head throughout the day. I will try my best to be entertaining because:
A) If no one else reads it, then I at least have to entertain myself while writing it.
B) In the event someone hot reads it and they hopefully live near me, maybe we can meet up!
C) I am not necessarily shy, but I am pretty comfortable being quiet, and as a lot of my closest friends have moved away, I find myself with more acquaintances than I know what to do with. This is a way to share my experiences and thoughts with other people, who will hopefully be non-judgmental as to my lifestyle.
So, look at this blog as my offering to all of you; I’ll share a bit of myself with you and I can only hope that through comments and e-mails, you will do the same with me. I look forward to it!
